Why

Why do bad things always happen to good people?

I pray everyday to shoulder all the pain that could befall on my family. Just me and me only.
And it stays the same.

I pray hard that everything will be ok.

I know I haven been the best sissy around. Definitely not if we were to include those times where I bullied you when we were young.

But for the past many years, we have picked up. We bonded. It was not too late.
Now all i wished for is for you to be healthy. I can and would give up everything.


Please. Please please.

Don't go breaking my heart 2

Love love love LOVE this movie..

But I love the story between gao yuan yuan and louis koo even more..
Sucker for romance and sucker for romance like this..

*heart eyes emoji*

And the soundtrack too.
And Louis koo too. <3 ... Makes my heart pom pom tiao.

xoxo

Musicians

If all of them look, plays and sings like him, I would have put in more effort in my piano lessons..

Election woes

Sometimes i read petty comments from anti-gahment supporters, i cringe at the thought that the country will be run by them in the FUTURE?! Touchy subject but I need to let off some steam.

Gahment may not be right all the time BUT IT BEATS HAVING THESE SHALLOW ANTI-SUPPORTERS running the country!

Let me list out what I meant by shallow.
1. TP came out with more fines for traffic offenders.
shallow-fellows will say -> see! that is how gahment suck our money.
Do i need to explain anymore?
You mean if you break traffic rules, it is the gahment's fault that you got penalized? And because of that, you think by offering your vote to the opposition party, they will WAIVE THAT FINE FOR YOU or thinks that it is fine that you broke a traffic law?

And if TP doesn't take action, shallow-fellows will say "gahment put citizen's life at risk. Is this how they treat us? vote wisely."... *twitch brow, foams in mouth* .. You just cannot beat them.

p.s somehow, civil servants (includes police, medical sector, army and the likes) are all under the gahment-supporters. i don't know why.

2. Gahment swallow our CPF monies.
This is the most mentioned about complain.
Me too infact. And every year the minimum sum increases. Will we ever be able to utilize all those money? It is hard earned. Gahment didn't give it to us. We worked for it!

I hear ya.

But think about it. Really.
If gahment release all that monies, would you still have any left to grow old with? To a certain extend, they are safe keeping it for us. And use it when we need.

You may argue "it is my money. how i spend it, is my prerogative." Sure thing.
But don't come back begging for assistance when you happened to squander it all over one weekend at the casino.
And when gahment doesn't help, you will have something else to say.
i.e our gahment don't help the poor.

And if we die, the money goes to our descendants. Not gahment.
bah.

3. The Casino
It is also the gahment's fault that our people become gamblers and lost their live savings to the casino.

Tell me. How does that make any logic sense to you?

4. Minister's Pay
How does it affect you? You think it is an easy job?

Look at the amount of bashing they get everyday whether they did it right or not.
I bet their insurance premium is the highest.

Next time, study harder. So that YOU can sit in their, i quote from you guys "comfortable air-conditioned office." and make the difference in the lives of our people, okay?

For now, suck it up and deal with it.

Don't just keep barking senseless bashing. Have a alittle more substance.
Some of the opposition parties are up the mark. They really do care for the citizens.
They deserve recognition and their ideas heard. These i have to give credit.

But sadly, most are just making senseless accusations.
Are these the people you want to run your country? Certainly not me.

On a happier note, I love dogs.
x

You died

I thank you for your invaluable advice and self-righteous inputs.
Will put them into use if it is applicable.

Other than that, please fuck off from breathing down my neck.

I cannot roll my eyes any more. Any further, I'll go blind.
And at the rate I'm killing you in my head, I'm slowly turning into a monstrous beast!

So please. For the sake of all of us, BACK THE FUCK OFF.

YOU IS YOU AND I ARE ME, OKAY?!!

Sheesh.

Pet Peeves #102567843415

And also don't ever say "all you do is click click click on the mouse what. easy peasy.".
Because it triggers the I-WANT-TO-SHOVE-MY-SHOE-IN-YOUR-MOUTH nerve in me.

Also try not to give us incomplete information and expect us to churn out top notch designs for you the following day okay?
Even if you do give us all the information needed, WE NEED TIME TO CONCEPTUALIZE TOO.

Everybody's job is different. And it doesn't take Einstein to realize each job requires different types of effort. Some require alot of mental work while others, physical.

Okay?
Do we understand each other now?

*shake hands*

陰天快樂

陰天快樂

作詞：易家揚
作曲：林俊傑
編曲：C. Y. Kong

天空它像什麼
愛情就像什麼
幾朵雲在陰天忘了該往哪兒走

思念和寂寞
被吹進了左耳
也許我記不住可是也忘不掉那時候
那種秘密的快樂

聽陰天說什麼
在昏暗中的我
想對著天講 說無論如何
陰天快樂

叫陰天別鬧了
想念你都那麼久那麼久了
我一抬頭 就看見你
那個酒窩

翻山越嶺之後
愛卻神出鬼沒
你像一首唱到沙啞偏愛的情歌

旅途中坐一坐
在鞦韆上的我
原來我忽略的如今想紀念也沒用
那些時光的因果

聽陰天說什麼
在昏暗中的我
想對著天講 說無論如何
陰天快樂

叫陰天別鬧了
想念你都那麼久那麼久了
我一抬頭 就看見你
那個酒窩

過去穿過了現在繞過了未來縫在心海中
帶著你我旅行變成老頭
孤單怕成了習慣所以我淡定走在人海中
偶而想看雲飛卻沒風

聽陰天說什麼
在昏暗中的我
想對著天講 說無論如何
陰天快樂

叫陰天別鬧了
想念你都那麼久那麼久了
我一抬頭 就看見了 當時的我

Sexist

Elderly (perhaps age 50 and above) / families who sail from the less developed countries or women who grew up in male dominant upbringing will think that it is not necessary for a woman to extend their education journey pass primary 6.

To them, having to go up to secondary school is JIN HO LIAO.
After that, they should start looking for life partners. And upgrade their skills at household chores instead.

Because after the woman marry, they should stay home and be a housekeeper, a mother, a wife and a superwoman.
Leave the duty of bringing the bread home to the male counter parts instead.

So we have this part time aunty who comes over to clean our office twice a week.
She is from a rather backward country where her family is mostly male dominating.
She married a local and had 4 wonderful children. Her youngest daughter scored herself a spot in the local university with a scholarship! *applause!*

So said aunty was sharing with me how she never had proper education and her daughter actually get to go uni.
Then it started to go downhill. She added saying it is not needed for girls to study so hard. Eventually, a woman will marry and be a mother, like herself.
She also mentioned her relatives (all from the same village) thinks that she shouldn't allow her daughter to carry on with uni.

WTF?

It's a scholarship. Means daughter gets to study for FREE.
Even if there isn't a scholarship in place, getting a spot in university isn't all that easy. I mean not that difficult either. But when opportunity arise, grab it! Sheesh!

But noooooooooooooooo. Said relatives were putting aunty down with their awful words.

"waste money study so much" - SCHOLARSHIP PEOPLE. NOT MONEY FROM OWN POCKET.
"when i was her age, I'm already a homemaker" - That's because you suck. Literally and figuratively.
"study so much end up also stay home and be a mother." - and then teach the following generations the same ol' so that their society will always be in-situ.

How does it benefit them, i wonder. To keep putting others down.
ya jealous, ma fren?

It is an education FFS.
geez.

And now dual income is almost necessary in most family.
OTHERWISE why does aunty have to come back into the work force after being a SAHM for 30years?

aya.

I don't know why I'm so worked up for what lor.
Not directly affecting me also.

Perhaps, I just cannot tolerate the sexist thing at this day and age.
GET ON WITH THE SOCIETY!

x

Procrastinate

There's this concert i would really love to go.
The sammi cheng one happening 1st august.

But ya know.. sometimes thy good friend, lazy, takes over thy body heart and soul. And when you got your arse ready to book them tickets, all the good seats are taken.

So who should i push the blame to?

Maybe the cockroach that was seen scurrying around the toilet that stop time around me because I had to spray baygone on it and then wash up affected area and inspect body to make sure thy enemy is indeed, dead.
phew. wasn't that more than a mouthful.

sorry not sorry.

But I'm mostly off my throne immediately when I see dirty dishes in the sink, clothes that screams "WASH ME PLEASE!", bed undone, hotwater flask lesser than half filled etcetera etcetera.

OMG have I morph into bao zhu po?!

Liddis. OMFG.

*checks self in mirror*

Permed hair - uncheck.
$5.90 PJs from chinatown - uncheck.
Disgrunted resting bitch face - MAYBE OCCASIONALLY.
Fag mouth - uncheck.
Big piece fully cup bra - uncheck.

I'm safe. For now.

okay.
this is getting depressing.
What a waste of bandwidth for this entry. *chuckles*

x

Random Rambling Thursday.

Work days should only be 4 days.
Mondays to Thursdays.
Since our working hours are almost the longest in asia?Or isit the world?
8am- 6pm.

That is freaking 10hours. Ok fine. Let's take away 1 hour lunch. Still makes it 9hours.

There are other companies that start work from 9am and ends at 6pm. That's 1hour short. And they are sometimes entitled to 2hours lunch? NBCB.

Anyways. On a happier note.
The OFFICIAL GREY book is coming out tomorrow!!!! USA time of course.

And I'm going to get the book. $9.90 from amazon. I DON'T CARE.
OMG OMG OMG.

And SUITS is coming back on the 24th.
Blardy cliffhangers man.
Each season less than 10 episodes. And only 1 epi each week.
Then we have to wait a couple of months for the next season.

C'mon SUITS producers!
Y U LEAVE US HANGING?!

*I've added link to both grey and suits for easy access in case anyone needs it.

Okays.
Byes.

Lemmings

It's the time of the year where I'm itching for a holiday again.

I've forgotten how it is to slow down already.
My last hol last year was a mad rush, I don't even know why.

Rush to catch the bus... Rush to shop till I drop before the shops close at 5pm. Rush here rush there.

End up, feeling all pent up and mad again. O_O

Watch a movie last night called "About time".
It was a heart warming romantic family movie. Absolutely my cuppa.

The movie was film in london. And it brings me back memories to the time while i was there. It has been, i think 3years? But memories were still fresh in my head. Prolly can still smell the morning coffee.. *inhales*
It was cold..yet we were taking our time there. It was really slow and nice. I loved it there to be honest.

Although food portions were way too big and apartments were a tad tiny.
Maybe it was the weather. And how calm their lifestyle is. We actually get seats on the train. And mind you their train seats were limited. And standing area were narrow comparing to our MRT.

Anyways, while i was daydreaming about sipping a cuppa hot coffee at a cafe down in the suburbs, listening to soundtracks from the movie.. Suddenly i felt whole again. I feel like me again.
Daydreams always sets my heart fluttering and my spirits high.

I've lost myself for awhile. Too many things were preoccupying my thoughts and my heart.
And I'ven been really happy for a while. Like really from the heart kinda joy.

This image was taken by me.. Want.To.Go.Back.

I wana travel again. I want to feel whole again.

Public transportations

Really knn one. sorry lah. I've to resort to vulgarities but this kind is really dulan until cannot.

Woes of travelling public.

1. Most common one. The group that refuses to move towards the back.

Reasons could be:
(i) Behind maybe got ghost.
(ii) They scared later go too far back, they cannot alight on time.
(iii) All the above.

knn. just move towards the back lah! if not, how can more people get up? you think other people no need to go home meh?!

I kena a few times already okay?! Just because selfish people refuse to move, i cannot board the bus.

Old people I can turn a blind eye cause old people. Got trump card.

2. The pole is not your lover.

(i) Nin nahbey. The pole is not for you to hug ok? Unless you feel like pole dancing, if not don't hog it!
You want hugs, go home and hug your bolster. Or pillow. Or the legs of your dining table.

(ii) It is also not for you to kiap your butt crack. Basket if i want to smell ass crack on my fingers, i can rub my own. Neither do I need you to warm my fingers. Sheesh!

(Becoz use arm to hold pole is too mainstream. ccb)

You know the pole can allow how many people to hold and sturdy themselves or not? You one person kiap the entire pole is fugging selfish, okay!

3. Eyes glued to smart phone are not very smart people.

(i) Wah this one takes the cake. You are on your ear piece already knn jialat cause you cannot hear when other passengers tell you "excuse me.".

You also bloody hell hog space because you are too engross with whatever is on that 5.5" that you don't even know that the bus is on fire and other people need to evacuate.

Can have more situation awareness or not?!

(ii) And please hor. If the bus is packed skin to skin liao, put your stupid phone/tablet/newspaper down okay? Knn I don't need your elbows anywhere near me. or on me. or in my eye. (i short lah, can?)

4. Oldest trick of all. Sleep/Pretend to be blind.

(i) Fugging give up your seats to elderly, pregnant woman and kids lah.
Period.
End of story.
No buts. Nope. UH! nope!

Mai kay siao koon or did not see okay.

I've seen cases where the poor pregnant lady was standing and facing a seated 18-20yr old girl (look like poly age lah). Her pregnant belly already bump into the seated shameless girl already.
That girl use eye power on the belly and look out of the window. Win liao lor.

You next time pregnant liao, you know the pain.
Don't get me started on the man. Later they say we woman expect this and that blah.. *roll eyes*

(ii) Mothers kangeroo-ing one infant and holding on to the arms of a toddler.

This one jin cham. They need to take out ezlink card to *teet* and fasterly keep it and at the same time hold the hands of an active toddler.
The toddler is obviously below eye level. Some below ass level. Poor thing.
Then the bus swing here swing there. Mother one hand hold hand rail, another to the kid.

WHY NOBODY GIVE UP SEAT? EYE POWER DOES NOTHING YOU KNOW?

And finally, 5. Smell

Please. For the love of all mankind and your own dignity, wear deodorant. Regardless you *think* you don't smell bad, just put on some.
Be a considerate commuter.

You know how bad armpit can smell or not? And when you lift your arms to hold the handles........... ...

Please la. You at changi, people at jurong also can die siol!

Which is why I always have vicks inhaler handy. If in need, inhale. FML.

The end.

An assortment of blabbering

This is a compilation of an assortment of unhappiness/happyness and musings that i've encountered since last year.

Nothing much actually. It is just some things i couldn't get past. Or need to share.

1. I'm not pregnant. (Stop asking and stop guessing.)

Quit smoking because it is about time i stop making excuses for myself.
(Although it means i've to work doubly hard at gym because stop smoking means I'll keep eating to kerb the urge.)

AND EVEN IF I DO get pregnant, i'll announce when I'm ready and when I want to. 
Not at your constant poking.
Or hinting. 
Or sarcasm.

BTW, the joy of quitting the sticks is awesome. The dollars saved isn't significant because I spent it all on starbucks. HAHA.

But the smell. Holy shit. I never really understood how bad a smoker smell.
Your hair, your clothes, your breath.
No amount of perfume you spritz will help. You can pour the entire perfume on yourself and there will still be stale smoker smell lingering, somewhere somehow.

Your food taste better. Smoking really fucks up your tastebuds.

You can't get close to your friends kids the instant you see them. It is as understood agreement that one should wash their hands before touching other people's kid. (or isit just me?paranoid.)

Of course not forgetting the endless health benefits.
I could do 3.2km in 20mins now. (nothing to shout about lar. But quite a feat for me already.)
Means I can still pass my IPPT!
This pride surpasses the need to pick up the stick again. (for me at least. Some kinda pat on my back and encouragement for quitting.)

But I'm not perfect either coz sometimes I still steal a puff or 2 when I see my brother. heh.

BUT no. I am not pregnant.


2. I'm not pregnant.

Quit drinking altogether just as well. Because if i drink, I WILL NEED TO SMOKE.
Period.

3. You become your other half.

For the weaker (emotionally) partner, you will start behaving like your partner with time.
Can be good, can be bad. I've seen both.

4. Chinese New Year

How i hate this festive occasion.
But on the bright side, I welcome the long break.

The need to pretend to be happy to see a certain relative. All the unnecessary concocted polite conversations. OHHHH PUULLLEEEEESSSSSSS... *roll eyes*

Isn't the occasion suppose to be happy and jolly? But you end up feeling stupid and jaded from all the efforts trying to be nice.

5. Welcoming the New Year 2015.

This year is a perhaps-could be year for me.
I might or might not leave my job. We'll see how it pans out.
This travelling distance is taking a toll.

6. My brother is married.

This is one of the biggest boulder that was sitting on my shoulder for the longest time.
(felt like my son got married..LOLLL)
Happy like a bird.
That was prolly the best thing that happened to start this year with a bang.
And I'm very happy he is blessed with a good wife.

7. This is getting too long and I've lost my train of thoughts. Maybe I should stop here. HAHA.

The End

Couple who sings together.

So I was just youtube hopping and chanced upon this lovely couple.

( i subsequently googled for them and found the blog of the lovely lady at http://dayre.me/yinagoh   and yinagoh.blogspot.com AND realized that they just got hitched recently.)

Anyways, the youtube video of the duet.



So natural and gifted! (currently on repeat on my playlist too. HAHA!)
And please, I get goose bumps when they were gazing at each other! So much love and rapport these 2! Awww....
How often do you find a partner that actually shares the same interest as you AND enjoys engaging it with you?!

If this isn't love, I don't know what is.

<3

Some quote

When the heart speaks, the mind finds it indecent to object. In the realm of love, the dictatorship of the heart reigns supreme.. 

~~ Milan Kundera, The Unbearable Lightness of Being

2015 forward

Good grief!
I wanted to blog on the 31st of 2014 but guess what? Yours truly had a mental block. Couldn't recall the email address that was used to register for blogger.
#FULLOFWIN

Thank goodness I managed to save it somewhere in the PC at my office. Ahbo I ish jin cham.

Anyways..

All I wanted to say is. KNN. Exercising (running/cardio) doesn't make me lose any weight.
It made my face bloated and thighs bigger. Somehow.

Took a random picture with a girlfriend yesterday and realized I looked like a whale next to her.
WHY LIDDAT 2015?!
Liddis exercise very demoralizing you know?!?!!!!

I've stop putting myself on the scales and use my clothes to gauge my weight instead. (lesser nightmare I tell you. Apparently muscles weigh more than fats.)
My clothes apparently still managed to fit fine after my constant competitive nature to keep on running like a hamster on the treadmill.
(Oh, btw my constant need to keep exercising is not because I'm health conscious. I've kick the ciggy habit. Without ciggy, I'm constantly eating.
Eating to keep the urge of puffing at bay. Thus, I need to burn the excess away. Heh. Eh, rhymes right?!) 

But WHY PHOTO EFFECT SO JIALATS?!?! FML you know????

Sigh.
On a happier note, let's hope 2015 brings us more love, more money, better health, more luck, lesser hate and lesser disaster.

Blessed one everybody!

Random thoughts..

And so i was reading Davienne's dayre..

And extracted this from her post:

"Unfortunately, if people can't know your secrets, then they can't be "close friends". 

They don't feel a strong connection to you because they cannot empathize. And empathy is important because when your friends FEEL how you feel, they can extrapolate your feelings onto their own. 

The deeper the secrets, the deeper the connection, because your secret becomes their secrets - there's a sense of ownership and a responsibility to keep it."

True to every word.

Charles Dickens

Great Expectations..

“Out of my thoughts!

You are part of my existence, part of myself.

You have been in every line I have ever read, since I first came here,

the rough common boy whose poor heart you wounded even then.

You have been in every prospect I have ever seen since – on the river, on the sails of the ships,

on the marshes, in the clouds, in the light, in the darkness, in the wind,

in the woods, in the sea, in the streets.

You have been the embodiment of every graceful fancy that my mind has ever become acquainted with. The stones of which the strongest London buildings are made,

are not more real, or more impossible to displace with your hands, than your presence and influence have been to me, there and everywhere, and will be.

Estella, to the last hour of my life, you cannot choose but remain part of my character,

part of the little good in me, part of the evil.

But, in this separation I associate you only with the good,

and I will faithfully hold you to that always, for you must have done me far more good than harm,

let me feel now what sharp distress I may.

O God bless you, God forgive you!”

You will always hold a special place in my heart.

Songs to memories.

Do you have this instance where you listen to a certain song and it reminds you of places, persons or moments?

And when that happens, you tend to put the song on repeat, perhaps another 10x until you got tired of running those memories over and over again?
Sometimes it's the lyrics. Sometimes it's the melody. Other times, maybe it's the MTV.
There might be several rendition of one song but only one has that particular effect on you.

It can't just be happening to me only, right? *shifty eyes*
You too, right?

So here are a few of my listed songs.


Daughtry - September

迷路兵 - 饮食男女
http://www.tudou.com/programs/view/7GbelCiVxyg

(sorry. the link to this mtv doesn't embed in blogspot somehow)


Graffiti6 - Over You



Late Night Alumni-Close To You



Damien Rice - Creep



Lisa Hannigan - Playground Love

Of course, these are the happy songs.
The ones that turns the end of my lips down, i'll usually block them out.

Anyways, TGIF.

Life is a beach

My friend has been sending me photos of his beach holiday. Pfffffff.

Makes me wanna drop everything and spend a week at a quiet beach villa, doing nothing.
No social media, no phone calls.

But looking at a private villa with personal infinity pool and outdoor showers, the cost would be more effective for somewhere further.
Pffffff.

I need to talk myself out of these money and sense bullshit first.

Pffffffff.